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What I learned in 5 years of being “mommy”

*This post is inspired by my sweet Lilia.  “Always shoot for the moon, if you don’t make it you will land among the stars”

Five is independence.

Five is a true “big girl”.

Five is reading and writing.

Five is kindergarten.

Five is a full hand.

Five is half a decade.

Five is big sisters.

Five is bike riding.

Five is hours of playing with dolls.

Fives is making friends, and sometimes wanting to be with them more than mom.  Sometimes.

Five is kindness, understanding, compromising, laughter, love and my little best friend.

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It is hard to believe I am a mama to a 5 year old.  As we navigate this next part of her childhood together, I am overwhelmed with how blessed I am.  She is the greatest.  When the Lord took our first baby to be with him in heaven, He knew the amazing little girl that was meant to be ours.

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Who I am today has drastically changed from who I was 5 years ago.  I am kinder, I am more patient, but I lose my temper more than I am proud of, I am less self absorbed, I am less concerned with others opinions of me, I am usually late, I am responsible, I am reliable, I am constantly learning.  Learning how I can be a better parent, how I can provide, how I can be a better wife since my only focus isn’t him anymore.  I am chubbier, I have a few wrinkles, and I can count on my fingers the amount of times I have worn heels.  I worry about packing lunches, and filling out school paperwork.  I worry about her sensitive heart and how mean girls are already affecting her.  I walk around every day with pieces of my heart on the outside.

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Parenthood is this amazing, crazy, chaotic, wonderful thing.  The love my children have for me is worth more than anything in this world.  My standard of myself is held by them.  Am I the best mom I can be?  Will we always be close?  Will she always know she can talk to me about anything?  Am I doing everything right?

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God knows I cannot do it without HIM.  I am so thankful he entrusted these little souls to me.  As we celebrate 5 years of her life, and 5 years of me being a mom, I can truly say these have been the best 5 years of my life.

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