So I wrote a post back in June about starting a healthier lifestyle. It has taken me until August 1st to actually start that healthier lifestyle, I think I just needed some time to really mentally prepare for this lifestyle change! I am on day 5 and feeling great. So far, so good. I am going to be doing weekly vlogs about this new journey of mine on my youtube channel, but I also want to write about it here. Sometimes I can ramble on in my videos and forget to say all I want to say!
I am not sure what it is this time, but this time just feels different. I feel like I am on top of the world, like I am in control of who I want to be. I am sure like many of you, I have started and stopped, and dieted, and exercised then binged and gained what I lost back. I have always been a very all or nothing person, but this time I am approaching this a bit differently.
I had been riding at the same weight for a while – the same weight I was when I was 9 months pregnant. I had kind of just accepted that this is where my body wanted to be. I had no real drive or motivation to change it. Then all of a sudden my size 14’s were starting to get to tight and I kept having to buy new bras… seriously the ladies are getting OUT OF CONTROL! I started to get these aches and pains in my joints, and it was getting hard to play with my girls, and to get up off the floor and up the stairs. I had never felt like this before and I just knew things were getting out of hand. On July 28th I weighed myself for the first time in a while. I was 8 lbs higher then that weight I had decided just to accept. Well my friends let me tell you, that was just unacceptable! I’m not going to lie I cried. I had a moment and then something clicked in my brain. I am sick of being this overweight, unhappy(physically), and unfit mom. My girls deserve more. So even though I have been ready for this change for a while, I had my official “ah hah” moment. it feels so good to feel motivated again. Even though I feel like a failure at my first week of exercise habits (not pushing hard enough, and not consistent enough) my nutrition had been pretty much on point. That is the area I have always struggled the most in. Now that I am approaching 30 I know this needs to be the biggest area of change. I know as I start to feel lighter it will get easier to exercise and I just need to get back into a groove!
It is hard for me to put this all out there for the world to read but I know so many of us struggle with body image, especially after going through multiple pregnancies. I hope to inspire others as I go on this journey. I know I am not going to give up this time, and I just know this time is for real. It might not happen overnight but it will happen. I know even a month from now I will feel 100% better then I do now.
Now that I have been a foster mama coming up on 7 months, it has made me realize that I eat my emotions. I think I always knew that, but with foster care you experience so many crazy emotions that really truly only other foster parents get. I figure I will be the size of a horse if I keep eating through the foster care emotions, and I know that needs to change.
So follow along if you want to see what I am doing and how well I actually do at it! I am not quite ready to post numbers and before pictures, but I will be taking progress shots every Monday and as soon as I feel good about the weight lost, I think I will get that boost of confidence to put all that out there for you to see as well! I know before and afters of women taking control of their lives, and their weight has always inspired me!
So my first big Goal is to lose 57 lbs – I am not putting a timeline on it but I am hoping by Christmas I will be starting to look like a different person. Like the pre baby me but better!
What am I going to do? I am taking a whole food natural approach. I am going to eat clean as much as possible, but still allow myself treats. I refuse to deprive myself completely, because I know that will lead to failure.
I am starting each day with apple cider vinegar water, then lemon water to cleanse my system. I won’t give up coffee, but I have given up adding sugar to my coffee. In fact I am trying to significantly reduce, if not eliminate sugar from my diet. I have a serious sugar addiction guys!!! After those 3 drinks, I will have a protein smoothie, or a high protein breakfast. I am going to be reducing starchy carbs and bad fats. Another biggie for me is stopping snacking, my previous routine was ingest nothing but coffee until around 2pm, then have a crappy lunch, a huge dinner, and a ton of late night snacking. I also had a serious pop and slushie addiction in the more recent months. I am not going to drink anything but water, with the occasional pure fruit juice added into my smoothie. NO more pop – that crap is like poison! Lots of protein and 4 litres of water a day! These are the basic guidelines I have set out for myself. Also food prep is going to be huge for me. I am going to be dedicating Sunday evenings to preparing for the week because if you fail to prepare you prepare to fail!
Once I get my nutrition on track I will focus more on my exercise regime, so I will save that for another post! For now I am adding brisk walks pushing the stroller, running, and home dvd Jillian Micheals work outs. I will re join the gym but not until September.
So there you have it, I am writing this not only to make myself accountable but to show you if I can do it with 4 kids 4 and under, and our crazy schedule (and I haven’t slept through the night since becoming a foster mama) then you can too! So lets do it together! Reach out if you need an accountability partner, because I am in this for the long haul. God gave us one beautiful body, it is time to stop abusing it and start treating it right! Self care, me time, better health whatever you want to call it, I deserve it and so do you!